Why does it have to be so hard?

So, we have no heat at work today, and I am getting a cold. I started to feel like crap yesterday, and it's just gone downhill from there. I ended up having cheese and crackers for supper last night, because I really didn't feel like having anything else.
This morning, breakfast was leftover omlette and some leftover bacon. It was OK, but because I can't really taste anything, it was just OK.
Tonight, I am going to try beef and broccoli. I came across a recipe yesterday that had rave reviews, so I will try it and see what happens.
Lunch today is pea soup, and supper will be the beef and broccoli thing, depending on the time. I have a massage at 6, so, if I don't feel like having supper before then, it may be something else quick for supper.
The south beach thing isn't really working out, but I think I am better off just cutting the crap from my diet, which I have been OK with. I want to see if I have the willpower to go one week without junk. I am also going to try to be a little more fastidious about tracking my stuff on weight watchers, and I really have to drag my ass to the gym. I am pretty sure I will feel better if I do that. The goal is to start on Monday again. I would love to lose about 20 lbs before I have to go to the dr in april.
I just wish there was a magic wand I could wave, and have it be gone. I have no willpower, and my friends are easily corruptable, and know I am easy to corrupt. I have to be strong, and realize that the skinnier I am, the healthier I will be.

To South Beach, or not to South Beach, that is the question

So, today is supposed to be the first day of my new regime. Yeah. Right. I think I have no will power. I stopped at Tim's this morning and had a cinnamon-raisin bagle with PB. No coffee, though- so that's a good step, right?
My snack was some kielbassa. Lunch was pea soup. My afternoon snack (if I am hungry) will be an apple and some cheese. Supper is 2 chicken thighs and a greek salad. My snack tonight will be yogurt, if I want one.
So, I have slightly modified my SB ways- carbs are OK. I just can't overinduldge in them. That's my downfall. I am also going to stay away from fried foods this week to see if I can.
The goal for the week is:
walk the dogs at least 3 times this week.
hit the gym at least twice
plan my meals so I am not tempted (except for Il Mercato this weekend. That is a planned indulgence!)